Depression

My heart feels so heavy. I knew it from the very first week that we gonna be like this. Why should every *this and that* people alienated us? Why should they treating us like this? Why they want to change everything? Just accept us the way we are. So damn mannn! I try to change my perception towards this thing, but all this #@$% things hinder me to do so. Why oh why? I think I need to be calm down first or else I might go over the board. Astaghfirullahhalazim. Don't worry, Allah always with us.